Bintang malam sembunyi sepi
Awan selubung cahaya bulan
Airmata baldu basahi pipi
Irama sunyi jadi siulan
Yang mana benar
Yang mana bayangan?
Yang mana mimpi
Yang mana teman?
Hujan lebat dalam dadaku
Mengenang dikau,
Mengecam daku
Kutatap wajahmu langit malam
Aku menangis meraung di dalam
Wajahmu pernah kulihat dulu
Tetapi hatimu tidak ku kenal
Cukup sudah tangisan pilu
Hilang sudah cinta yang asal.
I don’t understand what the fuss is all about. Really, I’m eternally grateful for my friends being so caring of me, but I’m fine with the way things are,really. I’m not one who is about to erase my past and pretend it never happened just so it won’t hurt as much.This is MY way of moving on, by accepting what happened as it is, and letting it teach me.I’m not about to run away from it when I know something similar will surely take place in the future.It’s the norm,innit?By accepting my reality, I feel it makes me stronger.I do not regret what happened, and I will surely never wish it had not happened.Why do I still keep these memories?Firstly, because they HAPPENED.Whether or not I like it, it will stay embedded in my memory.Secondly, because that was my reality THEN,not now.If I try to deny my past,then I am also altering my present and subsequently,my future.Or at the very least my outlook on it.I appreciate what happened and I wouldn’t trade it for the world.And I will not deny my future,should my past repeat itself.I will accept whatever comes my way as something new and totally unrelated to my past.Yes,I figure this is my new year’s resolution.My first ever.That I shall accept truth and not doubt-if I later find that it was otherwise,I shall simply accept that pre-expose was the truth THEN,and post-expose is the truth NOW.I shan’t doubt my friends and loved ones.I shall accept them and their shortcomings,for they have mine.I shall not bring myself down and let myself stay that way.I shall look forward to the enigmatic future.And most of all, I shall not ever wish for my past to be different.
Here’s to Now.
