Rogue Shadow

Another Day. Just Believe.

A brand spankin’ New Year! It’s just another day, and Just Believin is not a walk in the park anymore. For that matter, it never was, except maybe during my childhood, whatever little there was of it. But, to ensure that Hallmark stays in business so I won’t have to panic to look for last minute Father’s Day cards, I’m gonna suck it up and join this whole festive fackin cheer, and share my new year’s resolution with y’all.

1.Let me entertain You! : I need to get a job. I’m still going to be in college studying, but college is fackin expensive, and I want to practice what I’m learnin in coll anyway,so step aside all Sharifah Amanis and Lydia Ibtisams… Elza’s comin thru.

2.Downplay the Drama: Yeah. I tell myself this every day of every year. But after spending New Year’s Eve on the surgery bed gettin stitched up, I’m gonna try my damned best to zen it. I mean, I’ve tried to before, but Fate’s the Miss Bitch Editor to my plans, and decides I need some spice in my life! So, for this year, my theme song should be… Don’t Cry Out Loud.

3.Work It Out: I am blessed with tiny genes. I can eat a horse without having to worry about looking like one (until I give birth to the 1st baby, then the fatness is full speed ahead to make up for lost time). But, I am not fit, at all. My stamina is that of my grandad, and he’s dead. Also, because I’m not gonna grow any taller (STOP LAUGHING!), I’ve been advised to “develop” my “assets”. I believe there’s hope. I mean, look at Shakira, Aguilera, Kylie…so I’m optimistic. I’m just also very lazy.

4.Read, Write, (Cash$$$) Rewarded: I’ve been told I have a flair in writing (PREEEEET! Nadia comes in wearing Grammar Police uniform and hands about 13 tickets for grammatical offences), and am hoping to write continuously for Kakiseni.com, probably several scripts, and other clients for the mulah. I just can’t write unless truly inspired. If only I could runaway to some cute cottage in the south of France, free from civilisation, and let nature inspire me. Alas, that is for now impossible. Ah, well, guess I just have to depend on cash to inspire me. MONEY, MONEY, MONEY!!!!!

5.Save it for a Rainy Day: Speakin of MONEY, MONEY, MONEY!!!!!, I wanna start savin whatever I get. I have a habit of overspending on food. When I’m loaded, I suddenly am hungry 24/7. So at the end of the day I end up fat and broke. This won’t do. Because being broke gets me depressed, and depression makes me hungry.

6.Unbusify Me: I’ve been a terrible friend when it comes to keepin in touch. It doesn’t help that my schedule gets tighter as our bonds get looser (oh, I hope not). Dean and my angel Rags have been there for me since Episode 1 of my dramatic life. You can’t buy friends like that. Well, maybe you can, but I get them for free! So it’s only fair that I make time for their drama too. Besides, at the rate things are going, I’ll need them close by me.

7.We’ve been Too Strong For Too Long: On the 8th of this month, Ian and I have been together for 9 months already. And it has not been easy for the both of us. But anybody who’s seen us or read my blog, will probably know that I’m not planning to give him up ever. I am guilty for not doing my best at making him happy, and I want to fix that. Ian deserves so much more, but since he’s a sweetheart enough to stick with psycho-bitch me, I wanna make it worthwhile for him. Besides, this is training ground for me if I’m gonna be Mrs Tracy ;p.

8.Love Me, Love Me: I am always too hard on myself according to Ian. I apologise too much, it must be annoying for him. I care too much about what people (and by that I mean my Mom) think. It’s time I pull my life together, and do what makes me happy. I’m turning 20 this year. I think I’ve been obliging long enough. (I still quiver inside, but with Ian next to me, anything’s possible. Except putting toothpaste back into the tube.)

So, to a New Year, a Fresh (hah.) Start, and Brand New Hopes, here’s wishing you all The Best in Your pursuits of Happiness this 2007 and years to come. Cheers!