Rogue Shadow

It’s been a while since I’ve actually blogged. I’ve either been too busy, or too blah to write. But since Ian can’t chat online, and we’re currently chatting through emails at 2.18 am, I figured I’d write to pass the time.

A lot has been up since my last post. So here’s a brief update.

We wrapped filming TALENTIME with Yasmin Ahmad on August 30th in Ipoh. Had a grand time there. It was like a vacation, with real family. Met and fell in love with alla the people there. The beautiful boys: Mahesh, Kahoe, Hafiz, and yes, even comel Melkin, and of course, cheeky Chip. And then there were the gorgeous Pamela (who plays Melur) and Amelia (Melati). We really were sisters! And we turned that “accomodation” into well, believe it or not, home.

Days when we crashed the mall, our movie dates, both at the cinema and in the boys room(as in bilik boys, not mens room, noobs.) Staying up all night, having them come to my rescue when my net fucked up so I could talk to Ian. Or clever Melati who salvaged my ring. Days when we laughed and cried. And there was dancing! I miss Loges’s van and his tunes!

When we went for dubbing last night, and met up with some of them, I’m reminded of why I don’t have to think twice about getting alla my friends to watch this movie. It’s not just that it’s an awesome story with heart stopping great acting (i mean from the other flers), behind the film, is a fabulous crew. And this movie has love and honesty just pouring out from the people to the screen.

Tonight, I cooked for my boys, Tainted Covenant. Cooking is a joy of mine, and I think people bond best over good food. Thankfully, they seemed to enjoy the break fast. It was my way of celebrating them and thanking them for being such good friends. Theyre gonna go far, I believe. And we got Iriz a guitar to replace his old one that got busted. I’m just glad he’s gonna be playing again.

As some of you may have heard, Mama’s cancer has spread to her lungs and liver. They found 4 lumps, 2 in the right lung, 1 in the left lung near the heart,and 1 in her liver. Technically, that puts her in Stage 4, the final stage. According to one of her medical advisors (I refuse to call the bastard a doctor), her treatment is now palliative. He had the nerve to tell my mother to prepare for her final days.

But Mama’s optimistic. She wants to live for another 20 years, and you know what? Who’s to say she won’t? She wants to see Ines and I marry and see her grandchildren (yeah, no pressure, Sayang) Whatever it is, I just hope that whatever may come, that I’d be strong enough to face it.

With you lovelies in my life, hopefully I will.